Yesterday I attempted the seemingly impossible. I cleared out my hard copies of long held onto documents. In my work I know that the Universe can't provide more of the Good stuff if we are hanging onto the bad stuff. Many of the things we hold onto are just negative reminders and blocks for us. I really didn't need to keep old legal arguments, in various stages of revision regarding the custody of my kids. That was a long time ago and the papers were all name calling and character assassination. Besides, the kids are teenagers. Who cares at this point who gets a Thursday or a weekend? They decide for themselves.
I scanned important papers: tax documents, Divorce settlement papers, writings, and work previously done with my ex-boyfriend. I then went to town with my micro-shredder. I must of had four bags of cut paper and I felt cleaned up. I then had room in my filing cabinet for all of my current work. The hardest part was letting go of work I had done for people that never appreciated or acknowledged what I had contributed.. this really pissed me off. Just looking at these scripts, articles and business plans, made me want to kick some ass. I realized that by letting all of this go I was making room for my future work to be recognized and valued. More self-esteem building, a good lesson.
By the time I was finished, I had a headache, backache and a good dose of anger. I couldn't sleep and had to really think about what it all meant. It meant I was letting go of the past. This morning I felt, yippee, freedom. Nature abhors a vacuum. Clean out your closets and see how fast they fill up again. This time I'm filling my internal and physical space with positive, life affirming work. I'm ready to fill my once hidden clutter with new organization and abundance. I woke up today ready to make it happen. You can too.
Love, Carrie
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