Ain't No Easy Trip....

Do you know how fortunate I feel? I moved around a lot, starting at age four.

My Mother and I did this strange move from Louisville, KY to Beverly Hills, CA - everything after that is a blur.

From there I would literally move around the country depending on a personal (7 year old) temper tantrum or go live with whoever would take me in. It never seemed to be of interest to my parents about whether or not I finished a school year somewhere or if I was in a play, I don’t remember anyone showing up. I’m not into bashing my parents anymore, they tried. I was just a guinea pig.

As I reflect on my life I can see the great divide. I was young, tough and quick, and I didn’t know how to feel, all I knew was survival on a day -to- day basis. I swear today I will never need a GPS. I have the instincts of a homing pigeon. I never knew what “home” was, but I learned from an early age how to get from A to B. or at least from American Airlines to Delta.

What I did know was that, I deserved more respect from my elders than I was getting.

This really screwed with my self esteem, hence the years of abusive relationships and self medicating. To my biggest surprise, my two very best fiends, one from age 11 in Florida and one from age 13 in Connecticut have mysteriously returned to my life. It’s like I’ve flown full circle. I started to respect myself and the good things from my youth came back to me.

When we’re parents we are supposed to instill security and self-esteem into our kid’s lives. When this doesn’t happen, the damage always shows up later on. The gratitude I feel today is because I forgave my past, I gave up feeling like a victim lost in the woods.

You don’t have to be anywhere special to “BE” at home.

Love, Carrie

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[Jaque Margolis]

I love you, Who you were, who you've become, who you are and who you may be. All of you, always unconitionally. with love from Jac, the Connecticut BFF

[Jaque Margolis]

Have I told you how much I love you, Cory and Mason? You are a true gift to my whole being. Kisses forever jac.
Carrie