Spiritual Superstar Blog...by: Carrie McCully

No Time Like The Present

Yesterday I was angry. I angry with an ex-boyfriend who I thought would have called on Christmas or at least, sent an email. I realized how angry I was and knew it was stopping my flow of receiving good things into my day. How can you flow when your clogged?
This morning before my meditation and right after I read a chapter in a book about starting my own new business, the mail man came. He had a package that was meant to arrive on Saturday but had the wrong zip code on it. Inside was a book from the ex on the legalities of starting a new business. If this had come on Saturday I would have been annoyed that it wasn't a "real" present. Only today could I appreciate it.
I text him to say thank You and his response was that he thought I didn't like it and that's why I hadn't called him.
I cried from a really deep place inside. It was because we both felt abandoned and it was exactly the opposite. By acknowledging the anger yesterday I was able to do some introspection. I knew no matter what, I had to forgive and let healing come into the place that had previously been hurt. I let it go last night and today I received the healing. There is no time like the present.

Post Christmas Blues and receiving Goodness.

After setting myself up today with some really positive goals for my future. After meditating, journaling and visualizing. I found myself, fighting with my kids and feeling complete exhaustion.
I spent the morning reading a great book about receiving all of the positive energy the universe has to offer and it is ours to receive and there is even more to receive because so many people reject blessings and abundance. It is the law that the universe abhors a vacuum and I choose to throw out the negative and receive the positive. Wouldn't you know that as soon as I affirmed this to myself, I got hit with really human emotions. Remorse for arguing with the ones I love the most. Feelings of loneliness and hating my body.
The kids went off with their father for a few days and I was left with this pity me mentality and anxiety.
I realized how angry I am. How can I receive the abundance and create the life I want if I can't let go of the anger. The anger I have for the men in my life amongst other things is blocking my ability to receive.
So I am committing to forgive them and to let this go. I am opening my heart to let good things in.
I am a giver by nature and don't accept gifts easily. I am opening myself up to receive. There are after all two sides to a coin.